The result of philosophical conversations in the drizzling rain at 1:00 AM. [Edited]

[I just wrote this poem. I'm sure it needs a lot of editing. But I'm going to go ahead and share it before my better judgement prevents me from doing so.]

You are the devil at my left shoulder,

Leaned back against the bench

As you draw from your pipe,

Smoldering languid, casual.

Soft plumes

Of smoke drift up - sweet miasma

In night's black expanse.

Above us cloud tufts pass, changing

Over the constant moon - ever distorting,

Ever re-shaping its image as it looms, distant above.

And the moon is never the same

Or exactly explained

By what we can see of it,

In a single moment under starless expanse,

Suspended with the effervescent ping

Of invisible water flecks on skin.

Always there is a thin veil

Shrouding its full,

Luminescence.

You wax calmly about Kierkegaard,

Existential philosophy,

The downfall of Marxist theory;

About how you don't believe

In objective reality,

Or any collective human identity.

Beside you in the dark I hope

For some sign of your belief in my own

Fragile reality; want you to touch me warm,

Touch me soft under the smothering

Canvas of dark, amidst the faint hiss

Of smoke diffusing through light rain.

You depress me more than anyone

I have ever known. And still,

I see the luster of your lips in moonlight,

The firm angle of your jaw,

And wonder how it would feel

To brush lightly, lips over your brow,

Across the satin of your skin,

And blossom for you, the throbbing,

White-hot reality of my presence.

I shiver next to you in the dark.

I gaze up at the sky for a shard

Of escaping light,

As the fog obscures the moon.

--Alicia (2010)